Another milestone!

Teagan pulled herself up the other day. I couldn't believe it! Though I knew it was coming b/c she has been pulling herself to her knees on me. She has also started to crawl more on her hands and knees though when she really wants to get somewhere she changes back her army crawl b/c she can get around faster! LOL I honestly think she will begin cruising any day now. She just has to build a little more strength in her legs. Also, her 2nd tooth has pushed thru so now she has TEETH! LOL

I took her to The Picture People today (to enter her in the YoBaby contest of course!) I ended up getting a free 10x13 of her standing and an 8x10 of her naked little smile. Here they are. I love them! I can't wait to hang the pic of her standing since I had an empty frame for it already. I need to buy a frame for the 8x10 -- looks like I'll be going to big lots tomorrow! LOL

And the streak is over

Teagan woke up last night @ 3:30a to nurse! :( It was nice while it lasted. Her new tooth busted thru so maybe that was what woke her. We'll see how it goes this week!

SIL is pregnant

My mil called this morning and told my dh that his sister is pregnant. This will be her 3rd child. She has 2 cute little boys about 22 months apart. The oldest is 5 and the youngest 3. When I found out I was so excited but then immediately I got sad. This is very strange to me. I think it's b/c I just got my IUD and I KNOW I can't get pregnant right now. It's just a very strange feeling. Even thought I do NOT want to get pregnant right now and that it would totally KILL my marriage if I did, it's just weird knowing that I can't. And then the question pops into my mind, will I EVER have another baby? I don't know? My dh just doesn't seem fit for any more. I mean, he had a really hard time transitioning with Teagan and still has moments. As for me, I feel lately that I've even been having moments of meltdown. So I know a 3rd at this moment is not good for us but it was just that feeling of will I? that totally got me down. I feel a good victory is that I did get the IUD and we didn't do anything permanent so we were able to keep our options open. I think we'll be able to revisit the possibility again once we get back on our feet financially. IF we ever do have another, we definitely need to have a bigger house. Or maybe I just have to come to peace with the fact that we are a family of four.

CAPPA

My mom bought me two years membership so I can get on my way to getting my doula certification. I decided to become a childbirth educator first though. I think it is more fitting for my life right now with two young children. CAPPA has a scholarship program and I sent my application in yesterday. It has to be in by Oct 1, so fingers crossed that it gets there in time. I'm not holding my breath to receive the scholarship though. I feel like I'm probably not the person who most needs it, but it sure would be helpful. As I was doing more research on becoming a doula, I came across Rocky Mountain Doula Educators and have been emailing back and forth with regard to hosting a Doula Workshop next year. This would really help with the cost (it's $365) and if I host I get a sizable discount if not get the training for free, plus I get my certification packet so that is a big plus too! I'm really excited about it. I feel like I'm really moving things forward and that feels so good!

2nd Night in a row

Teagan slept thru the night again! I'm in total disbelief right now! We even put her to bed an hour earlier than we normally do b/c she missed a nap and was cranky. I woke up this morning with sore boobs and couldn't believe it! She went from TWO nursing sessions to NONE! I'm really proud of her but it feels like I'm losing more and more of my baby! :( She nursed this morning for a good 20 mins though, she sure was hungry! LOL If she is seriously sleeping thru the night and this is not just a one time occurrence, I am really glad I got the IUD when I did! ;)

No dreams this time though! LOL

So, what do I do with a full night's sleep?

I dream of Paul McCartney of course! LOL I still can't believe it. I had a full dream about Paul. Ahhh, dreamy. He looked more like Hugh Grant in my dream but hey, I'm not complaining about that either! I got to kiss the Hugh Grant lookalike Paul McCartney and hang out with him in his penthouse. I told him I wanted to sleep with him! I even said I know he probably wouldn't want to b/c I'm not a gorgeous women and my body is gross because I've given birth to two babies in less then two years, but he said I was the most beautiful real women he's ever seen! OMG! But we got interrupted. I got to see the piano where he composed all his songs and just touching the keys sent shivers down my spine. I was so star struck in my dream! That was one of the best dreams I've had in a long time! I think it would be so cool to meet him in real life! Of course, I'll restrain myself and not tell him I want to sleep with him! LOL

She SLEPT THRU THE NIGHT!!!!

Wow, I forgot how 6 straight hours of sleep feels! I woke up at 4am in a panic! What? Teagan hasn't woken to nurse yet? Usually we're on our 2nd round at this time. So, I lay there for a few seconds and then I start to panic. What if something happened to her? What if she stopped breathing and I wasn't there next to her to know? So, by this time I have got to get up and check on her. I stop at the bathroom first and then I quietly open the door to the girls room. Tolla stirs on her bed and looks at me thru heavy eyelids. I tiptoe over to the crib and there is Teagan, butt high in the air. She's facing the complete opposite way of when I laid her down of course! I still can't tell if she's breathing so I ever so slightly place my hand on her back. Yup, we've got breathing! So, I tiptoe back out of the room, certain that I've just woken her up and go back to bed. I lay there a bit waiting for her to cry, but nothing. So, I roll over and fall back asleep. Then I wake up 3 hours later!!! What?!?!?! She STILL hasn't woken up to nurse? My full heavy breasts confirm this. At this point, I realize, I've just gotten a full night's sleep! Wow, I think it was just a fluke, but only the next couple nights will tell for sure!